i toss and turn everynight,
-just lying on a twin size
thinking of you lying in your bed
-knowing that you're never gonna be in mine
the blood keeps rushing to my head
-like my bed is on an incline
these words are the only way i vent
-thats how i keep my thoughts in line

lately,
ive been drinking my nights away
working on music hoping i can find a way
to get myself an audience so i can blow their minds away
but im lacking prominence
im gonna write this anyway

i feel grounded like a child
- i just wanna fly away
ive been writing for a while
-its how i burn all my time away

put the pen against the page
hoping i can calm the rage
knowing everything i do now
is gonna be in vain
flowing till i fall asleep
insomnia will always keep me
wide awake
flowing till im dyin
but its all the same

cuz i was never really living
-i think i might go insane
time has never been a given
-and it couldnt go the other way



you cut a lot deeper than a paper cut
but im tellin everybody im okay for what?
nah, nothin much
i just hate the fuss
and i dont really like the conversation, plus
if i talk too much
i might gain some trust
and id rather be alone cuz i hate the rush
of friendship
and too much might relate to us
if my heart burns anymore i may combust

id rather not put on another performance
id rather stay true, be remorseless
i still have passion but i keep it dormant
i dont dress it up, i dont need an adornment
even if i wanted too i couldnt afford it
i got a lot of drive and im lookin to floor it
ill stay the course, and ill play the courts
cuz i play of course,
-so play the chorus

when i wake up
im shaken up
cuz i dont see you sittin next to me

i never seem to get it right
-i denied all the flaws in me
until i saw my dying light
-idk what you saw in me
i waited years for you to call
-all this time you were haunting me
all this time i couldnt sleep
-with every single dream taunting me

i never got a therapist
only cuz im arragont
never had a word to speak to anyone aware of it
all i have are memories but i can try to cherish it
its all i really got,
now that im irrelevant

ive always been intelligent
-but i dont see the relevance

in everything i lost
-so ima keep it relevant
cuz lyrically im elegant
but i dont see a benefit
in keeping it so definite -

cuz in everyones reality
-i do it for the hell of it
i aint here to fuck around
-im gonna keep it celibate
and ill rise back up
-only cuz i fell a bit


im gettin writers block just thinkin of you now
you got me stopped in my tracks, year round
i know it can never go back here now
but i dont know wether i can stop and come around
-ill keep writing as im diggin underground
i wont even think of gettin sleep or wonder how
the only time i seem to be at peace is when im lyin in the dark to fall asleep and you're the only one around

when i wake up
im shaken up
cuz i dont see you sittin next to me